Thursday, December 30, 2010


This year we had a bittersweet Christmas, although very thankful for what the Lord has given us, our baby girl was still in the NICU at the hospital. My parents, grandparents and my brother's family all came over to eat breakfast together and open each others gifts. I was grateful we could all be together but at the same time missing our daughter and very sadden. It was very hard leaving the hospital for not even 24 hours without our baby, knowing on Christmas we would be able to bring her home. It was the longest and most stressful week of my life, having a child in the NICU is like not knowing whats going to come next. You are always on your toes, wondering what they will tell you next, what test they are running, how many times they are going to poke your baby and on and on. When I first went into the NICU after recovering a little bit from my c-section, I just started weeping over her incubator. I just lost it. It was the worst moment of my life. Never in a hundred years did I think my baby would have to go to the NICU. Family came, everyone was excited and nobody could see her, hold her or anything. It was just a very sad time in my life, full of worry and sadness. Going every 3 hours to feed her and not being able to just bond and hold her as long as we wanted, watching the IV tubes so we didn't stretch them to far, seeing her getting her foot poked every other time she ate, I mean it was just awful, my heart was breaking for my precious angel. Another thing was the doctors just kept telling us they didn't know why her white blood cells were up and sometimes things happen and we don't know why. I am very thankful on the other hand for how comforting the doctors and nurses were, they were amazing, made us feel somewhat that everything would be okay. Everything is okay and our little princess went to the doctor today for her well checkup and everything is good. The only thing the doctor noticed is that her left kidney is not emptying all the way so we are being referred out to a specialist. When I was pregnant we knew her kidney was a little dilated and they would be doing a follow up about this problem.   Her pediatrician didn't seem to be to concerned but then again, mama is. It is very hard to except but nothing is in our hands, it is in God's hand and he can heal all things. He is in control and sometimes it is very hard to let him handle all of your troubles. Prayer and Faith is what it takes. So, I am trying to remind myself of this several times throughout the day. I empathize with all of you other families who are going through  the same experience we did, some of your experiences are longer and ongoing, some may have been shorter, all I know is that I understand where you are coming from and I will continue to pray for you and your family. Enough of that sad story but I needed to get that out. Santa (Daddy stayed up very, very late) came to visit and the boys were very excited to see what all he had left.
Ashton got his Red Tractor just like Granddaddy's (OLD), Coloring Easel, Tag Junior and Books, Weebles Wobbles, Digger Set, Movies, Fridge Phonics and more. 
As you can see in this picture his white blanket is on the floor and on the couch, these go everywhere with him, room to room. He loves them and he has about 4, they are getting to be so stringy (picking white strings up constantly). He has had them since he was born, we even got a queen size blanket and cut it into fours and had Mama Nancy sew them up for us. It's looking like we are going to have to do that again. :) He is precious with his blankets, I couldn't dare think about putting them away for keepsakes, he is still my baby boy. 
Cade was very well pleased with all of his gifts as well. He got a Video Rocker Chair, BB Gun, Star Wars & Halo lego, Nerf Gun and more.
They both were very excited and overwhelmed with all their gifts. I believe I may have went a little overboard, although I didn't pay full price for anything. That makes me feel somewhat better. We are a very blessed family. We done Christmas with Keith's family on Christmas Eve and had a wonderful time. 
Keith and I with his Mom (Linda) and her husband (Barney)
Keith's sister (Teresa) and her husband (Mike) and their mom (Linda) and her husband (Barney)
We had a great time enjoying each other's company. I hope each and everyone of you had a Merry Christmas.

1 comment:

  1. Bless yall's hearts. I cannot imagine having a baby in the NICU, it must be so hard! I'm so glad she is home. I hope everything is okay with her little kidney. Keep me updated.